Jag rewatched scenen och det här är anledningen till det:
Mom and Dad They will blame themselves, and it's not their fault.
New York I could get there someday. If not college, then after college. And maybe I could start over there.
Clay He will also think it's his fault and it isn't. He'll think he could have saved me. But we can't save people, not that way at least - it's more complicated than that.
Writing I might - might - write something great one day. Get it published. Even be a writer. Seems unlikey - but possible.
Dad Loves me without question. Always wants what's best for me. Even though I'm mad at him, it would be unfair to him to leave.
Mom I don't know if she could live through it. She is always so on edge already. But maybe that's already my fault. I know she loves me--I wish she knew that I knew.
Mom and Dad Worked hard to give me a better life. Would be letting them down.
Helmet Is a genuinely good guy. And i genuinely like him. And maybe we're supposed to be together. Don't know. But maybe. If I go, we'll never find out.
Maybe Someday I could make a difference in someone else's life.
Maybe I'll have a kid of my own one day, and maybe she could be that someone else.
Maybe It's no as bad as I think it is. Maybe it will get better.
